I love the line in the Lord of the Rings by Bilbo Baggins: “I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread.” It sums me up perfectly right now.
I handed in 3 major assignments this week for uni and now I have to wait 2 weeks for the results. I’m trying to put them out of my mind and focus on the next (and last) 3 for this teaching period due in 3.5 weeks.
I have been homeschooling 3 our of our 4 kids and this week everyone had issues. I spent over 2 hours on Thursday going from one maths problem to the next in each year level. I think I handled it quite well and was happy to see I explained it better than the videos they were all told to watch from school.
I’m still working my full hours, just from home. I’m working on a major research paper there and we had time critical work come in that had less than 24 hours to get passed for approval so I was logged on at 10pm at night.
This week has been full of helping Hubby with job applications. This involves editing, proofreading and helping to make sense of things I don’t understand. I really hope he gets one though as he is unhappy in his current role.
Mudson is sick so its been long nights and sleeping on the floor next to his bed. Now I’m starting to wonder if I’m getting sick. And on top of all that the regular chores of running a house and trying to exercise.
If thats not butter scraped over too much bread, I’m not sure what it. What is listed is just what I have been doing, it doesn’t include all the things I think or feel I should also be doing, like Mini Peas! I have so many plans for so many things its just a shame I don’t have the time or energy for them all.
I would love to start our kitchen renovation or get the house repainted. I would love to work on the story ideas in my head or the plans I have for Mini Peas. I’d love to have dedicated time to workout, or read, or have an hour to myself. But in this COVID-19 world we are living in its not possible.
I am looking forward to school returning. 2 of our kids will go back on the 18 May and all 3 will be back from the 25th. It will make such a difference to my brain power and working ability.
Right now though, I need to give myself some slack and know its ok to not do everything. I have happy, healthy kids. Both my husband and I have jobs. No-one we know has had COVID-19 or even been in contact with anyone who has. Things are reopening soon.
Until then, its ok to do what you can do, and nothing more.